By: Ladyjo
Echoes of your
touch still lingers on my fingertips. Just as the taste of your lips still
lingers from your ardent kiss. Thoughts of you gracefully waltz on the dance
floor of my mind. To a familiar melody that’s now stuck on rewind. Seeing you again
after all this time, Reminds me how fearful I was when I choose not to have
made you mine. I remember how easy we were, and your arms felt like my rightful
place. When you reached for me, I fell helplessly into your embrace. And what was once
a school girl crush. Has now rekindled as an adult love affair in a moments
brush.
Now here we are, all grown up, no longer kids. My fears have subside,
but now, you’re the temptation my body forbids, My heart selfishly desires and
my mind stubbornly refuses to rid. For I’m reminded
of what could have been. If only I was strong enough not to allow fear and
doubt to be my greatest sin. Yet echoes of your embrace still lingers on me. I
can still feel myself wrapped in your arms lying next to you so comfortably. Yearning
to call your embrace, home. Believing it’s the antidote to this emptiness of
being alone.
But so much time
has already gone by, alas. Is it even possible to revisit sentiments that have
long been surpassed. Like how I feel when I see your handsome smile. Yes, I’m
Still… Infatuated by your handsome smile. And finding
myself still able to get lost in your alluring brown eyes. Consumed by the
repetitive thought of you and me. Selfishly flirting with hope, to make these
thoughts a reality. If only our dance
of Love and Life could fall into perfect time. When your desire to be with me,
at last matches mine. We’d come to experience a love only a few truly finds. When
two hearts become one, for our paths were destined to combine. Because I’ve
been saving all my Love just for you. And after all this time, you still adore
me, too. But I’m not able
to act upon what I truly feel. And my desire to be with you I struggle each day
to conceal. Fighting this daily battle to endure in God’s grace. To put him
first and not allow my selfish desires to become my disgrace.
Hesitantly, I ask
you not to un-break my heart. For that ache will become my remedy as we remain
apart. As I overcome the echoes of your memory saturated in my existence. Watching
love gradually drift away into the distance. For if you love someone and set
them free. God’s able to bring them back, if it’s his divine plan to be.
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